Voice: gone

Ive lost my voice. Gone. All that comes when I summon it is this pale and ridiculous squeaking.

But, I did just have an epiphany.

The "I reject you before you reject me" thing is definitely the way to go for now. Im in! Why bother with social graces etcetera when you can forgo the entire endeavor and come out (fairly) victorious? (I didnt want to be their friend anyway! I couldnt care less if they liked me or not!) Its fucking perfect.

I will be the bitch that you cant possibly like anyway. We both win. Im no longer trying. And you are perfectly justified in your decision to condemn me. Bril- li- ant!

We
both
win.

Or at least, theres less effort I need to put in. Less work is always welcome. I could use the fucking. rest. People always told me I tried too hard to please other people. I did. I get it, but I always thought that was what I was made of.

NO longer. Ive found freedom in condemning you; in becoming the bastard wench that lived deep inside of that dark well of a soul. Shes here now. Full-fledged. Life will be easier now, for her.

Strap in, though, folks! NO more concessions will be made. You want selfish? Shes here. Pretentious? Check. Self-absorbed, ego-centric, and power-consumed? I am on that shit!

Strap in. I am now the patriots and i . dont. give. a fuck.